PNEUMONIA! It hadn’t shown up on the X-ray because of when the X-ray was taken, but apparently it was practically glowing on my CAT scan. Hurrah.
What this means for me: I had to cancel all of my classes, can only check in at work by phone or internet, and I have been ordered to REST. I had to go out this morning to get my prescription for antibiotics filled and I thought I was going to pass out after twenty minutes. What sucks more is that now Bunny has a bug; nothing huge but he’s feeling crappy as well.
My sister and I were talking on the phone last night and we realized something. Our dad has always been the type who didn’t want to raise any sissies. This has been good in some respects, because when adversity strikes, our first reaction is to figure out how to solve a problem on our own. All three of his kids (my brother, my sister, and me) are independent and creative people. Unfortunately, this also has caused a problem when it comes to our health. All three of us tend to ignore the signs of fatigue, choosing instead to ‘power through’ and not to complain when we’re a little under the weather. Maybe that kind of action was okay at age 21; at 34, though, it’s not as good an idea. I’m not old but I am at a stage where I need to consider how my current health will affect my future health. Decisions I make now could have far-reaching consequences.
So, although I may feel guilty for sitting around ‘doing nothing’, right now that’s what I NEED to do. The fact that I started to feel ill just from being out for an hour this morning is proof that I can’t just power through as I might have in the past. I need to rest, and that means REST, not ‘work less’ or ‘justify the occasional errand’. It means REST. So that’s what I’m going to do.